before that,i felt that the guy was just being too unreasonable,too kind,he's weak yet he tries to protect those people around him,he's wounded yet he is smiling to cover up the pain so that those he loves will not be worried,so that those he loves will continue to smile until the end without knowing the truth that he's been bearing with,because of his kindness,he's used and fooled and for many times his life has been threatened,and because of the persistent presence of monsters ,he was once called liar and freak when he tried to tell about his secret,no one ever believed him,then he learnt to keep it to himself ,supposedly he should be hating monsters ,yet he has saved many. maybe from that time he's decided to return those names to the original monsters,he's tried to reach out,has been changing his views of the world ,tired of running away and being alone all the times,it feels good to see him changing,revealing parts of him bits by bits,and start to believe that there's kindness and understanding from people around him,the little boy who is not good at socializing clumsily expresses the gentleness and caring for others,love to see him trying,his seriousness and devotion in everything

sometimes ,those loneliness we feel are caused by us,there are people who love and care for us,but if we are unable to trust or open up our hearts to them,they wouldn't have known if we needed them,we have always wanted someone who will understand the meaning of our words without much talking ,wanted one who will be by our sides all the times without wanting us to give out,it's all but fantasy, love is established on mutual understanding,if they continue to give out without having something back for them ,maybe someday they will get tired of waiting and leave,we want people to understand us but it wont be going anyway farther than what we have wished, if we remain oblivious of their feelings.maybe in some incidents ,you will find that you are actually being loved by many people ,before that you never knew ,don't be surprised ,they have always been there for us ,just that we never tried to pay attention to what they did to us,
just that we have always put an ice cube in between ,freeze those hearts that have tried to get near ,and added a layer of insecurity,sometimes you can put down the shield and hold out your hand,i believe no one is forever trapped in the darkness,lean out and let the warmth of sun fall upon your fingertips,just like those monsters ,even though having great power ,they will still feel alone,even though hated humans ,or think that humans are too vulnerable,but still looking forward to the subtle feeling felt for them.

to those people who have loved and cared for me,i just wanted to say thanks for you guys ,for everything that you have done ,i might have overlooked it or being unware of ,still you guys have been helping me along ,when i'm sad ,alone or feeling lost ,have been giving me a lot of support and advice,i'm appreciative of it ,
i love you guys ..