black butler

i wake up to find pain ,
throbbing and fresh
start gnawing its way up my side,
my hand clutches the lower side of coat
feel the wetness on the tips of my fingers
the colour of crimson blossoms
and recalls memories from beneath
i remember choas
everything went aflame,
pillars crumbled down,
blazing flame raged on,charred the surface as it crossed,
tainted the sky overhead blood red
the crying sound slashed the silence of the night air
the city fire,fury of an angel
like the churning sea in storm,
dark and twisted
washed everything red
where am i
sit up and gray spinning fog is around
coils over the surface of water like a serpent
leaves no mark where it crawls
folded and furled
the air is thin
water gray as steel beneath my feet
the boundary is vague
at where the horizontal line disappears
the world's hauled into nothingness
like a faded picture
dark blue eyes look out over the water
watching breaths flushing out turn into white dense vapour ,
slowly rises up and vanish into the bluish gray of light
curled up on the wooden board
the outline of city ,the curve of river or
the shape of the bridge is unrecognizable
sit on a lake of shadows
the gloom dives in
the future is never transparent clear
yet the past is fading,
every pieces of it,
like the sand in glass
my life is flitting,
my soul is lifted.
the growing darkness growing
creeps in from the corners of my eyes
my vision blurs
flurry of blue spots float past me,
brush my face gently ,
twirl in front of me before blow away
''what are these blue light?
''these are the people appeared in your life,these are their longings for you,my master''
''longings?such a strange feeling''
the moon is dreaming upward
from a sea of cloud and gleams
sorrow darkens into despair on the surge of heart
that cannot cease to bear
never thought I'd be able to feel again
sadness clings to me
darkness closes it on every side
the rose has lost its redness
cold the grass has grown
water rushes up the shore and recedes with calming repetition which
eventually becomes stillness
this is where when it ends

you look so sad as you sleep
as if you were having a bad dream
but i'm here ,right beside you
and i wont go anywhere
how do i live without you
you have lived mistaking freedom for selfishness
relying on a starless night
with an invisible eye
to everyone who is empty
hold out a hand and dream a dream
now look to the sky
for i will always protect you
the shadow is free to flap its wings and fly around
for i do no long for it anymore
anyone isnt free

everyone is in the sky
in the cage called ''freedom''
its enough if you are here
for i do not need wings anymore