夏目友人帳

炎炎的夏日
淺淺的思愁
緊緊地牽引着心的孤寂
夜深如海
靜如水
碾轉難眠
耳旁傳來貓那慵懶的打呼聲
背脊上的汗水濕了棉被
嘯嘯晚風聲
輕揚地撥弄着額前淺茶色秀發
月光的餘輝洒在窗台前
穿透在指縫間
竟是涼涼的溫暖
陰暗蔓生,
被遺忘的角落
思念在哭泣
思緒在重疊
為什麼總得一個人背負着痛苦
眼眸深處的悲痛
已到了無法承載的地步
但卻不能因此而止步
即便到最後只能拖著疲累的腳步
孤獨的前進
咬緊雙唇
把軟弱隱藏起來
使其無法被察覺
本以為已忘了人與人間相處的微妙
已忘了自已是多麼地渴望接觸
和被接受..
想起了那個傍晚的她
曾經一個人蹲在遊樂場那哭泣
因為對於不被認同的自已
因為對於遭到厭惡的自已
而想改變的事實
感到無助
那時你出現了
安靜地蹲坐在我旁邊
注視著,肩膀因哭泣而輕微顫抖着的我
逐漸消褪去的暮色中
我倆的影子投射在冰冷的石灰地上
此夏,只因有你
你那緋紅的眼睛
恬靜地笑著
你的出現
驚艷了這個夏天
驚艷了我天空的顏色
終於知道自已並非是孤獨的
並不是獨立一個人行走在這不平穩的世界中
隔天,我回到了原來的地方
想再次遇見你
你倚在欄杆上,
猩紅的雙眼
看見我時
竟有些驚訝
寂寞嗎?夏目
姐姐呢?
因為夏目會來,所以不會寂寞的
我不是一個人,姐姐也是能看到的呢
你轉過頭,不語
只是淺淺地笑著
夏目,為什麼一個人在這裡?
我有些許徬徨,抬頭
鄰居家的婦人往我這兒揮了揮手
她難道看不見坐在我身邊的她嗎?
同一片天空
同樣的景物
唯獨在她眼裡
她是不像實物般地存在着
夕陽的殘紅
如搖曳於風雨中的燭火
倒映在你那血色的瞳孔中
幾分寂寥
幾份憂傷
夏之夕
流逝的鮮明時光
染醉了寂寞的彼岸
眼淚順著臉頰滑落
灼熱的
對不起,只是無論如何都想和你說話
無論如何嗎?
夏夜
回憶裡的你竟然也是寂寞的
因為想親近
所以才撒謊了嗎?
因為一個人會寂寞
會害怕踏出第一步
所以才執著於等待
即使最後還是會失望..
人與人間的相遇就像場夢吧
因總想得到
但卻總會失去
一路上或許會難過寂寞,會爭執
但因有你的陪伴
所以覺得有很多事都能忍耐
雖然知道最後你還是會離開
就像那夢終究會醒
但那短暫的記憶
曾經的相遇是不會消失的

总是在想人类生命的意义在于何
也许就是这种有限的渺小吧
因为有限，所以总需有所取舍
因为取舍，总会有所遗憾
但其实,那些遗憾不甘是意义
欢笑泪水是意义
失去也是意义
僅僅是活著,或許就是所謂的意義吧..

i remember the first time i watched this anime ,i was pretty drawn to Ciel,because of his remoteness and intricately characteristics.though i knew that Sebastian was also one of the important characters ,that the series would be incomplete without him .now when think back ,i found that i actually do miss parts of him.sounds silly ,swt.Sebastian ,everything about him is so perfect ,i guess i know why those girls are so crazy over him.

i like him not because that he's good-looking , or perfect in everything ( perfection do make people feel a bit unapproachable),not because of his gentleness or sensibility,or because i like something that is devilish
i like him because of his smile


he's one of the few characters in this anime that do constantly keeping a smiling face,but of the others ,i don't like Liu's smile ,because it seems to me hypocritical and obsequious .i distaste Grell's exaggerated ,sickening smile ,when his red-lipsticked lips stretched wide ,it seems to be perturbing,and after all he only smiles to those handsome.Aloise's smile seems sad and self-mocking,it's of the disappointment and despair to the world ,sometimes it seems tauntingly and callous.and i hope so much that Ciel do smile sometimes,it's so hard to see that

Sebastian
he smiles faintly when Ciel criticises his prepared food
he smiles reassuringly when he's wounded in the battles,but still trying to pick Ciel up in his arms
he smiles warmly when he introduces the dishes for dinner
he smiles grimly when he fights
he smiles ironically when teases Ciel of being contradictory
he smiles knowingly when Ciel hints on something
he smiles politely when received praises from the others
he smiles sweetly when teaching Ciel waltz
he smiles shaking his head when his master insists on eating dessert before dinner
he smiles with relief when the problem is solved
he smiles,in love when being with cats
he smiles playfully when Ciel is embarrassed
he smiles when saying yes,my lord

if it wasn't for that month ,would you smile warmly again ,like you truly mean it? if it had not been for the night three years ago,would you be the same child as you were now?the child who was once shy,timid is long gone,the life of a child who believed in love and faith ceased on that night, in the burning red flame,all reduced to ashes ,smothered,blown away by winds,the truth locked away,the remains hardened,fortress built up high and silently behind those piercing blue eyes,in them i see a ferment of emotions,apathy yet angry,longing yet afraid ,denial and confusion all mix,light years,still and distant cover not the sorrowful face,arrogance and pride is the colour of camouflage,it wraps you up so that it's never noticed,your pain or vulnerability ,even when it's reached the point of breakage,you will never back down or cringe from it,you said weeping is only for the weak,you know that even if you were to break down and cry,there aren't anyone beside you to comfort you of your sadness,so what is the point of crying?and there are things that can never be retrieved ,there's despair that will never be erased by time,so you decide to move on instead of dabbing in the rotten past .however ,underneath those layers of shield,lay a pure soul of its loneliness and desperate isolation ,desperate for something to hold on to,desperate for love and able to feel loved again.

if tears are the evidence of pain
then i shall not let you see it
i shall hide it in the rain
and let myself be the only one
who can hear the crying sound of those silent grief
summer wind rips the leaves from the branch before their lives
trampled and withered
freezing into dirty slush in the harsh winter
rises scarred but strong
carry the burden on the back
unspeakably heavy,
sagged down on my shoulders
wanting it to be lifted off so much
but now it's too late to step back or look behind
trudge forward through the yards of blank white snow
heaped up high around my knees
sometimes falling down
and standing back up again
over the hill
there is a faint line of light
brush of pale pink and lime green
dawn is coming
what is beautiful is fleeting
and i must get to there

if love never lasts
then i shall keep my distance
keep my heart shuttered
so that you will never see the marks to show that i have ever cared
secretly hide away the vulnerability
if this is the real you laying naked in the depths of my eyes
the thoughts of you is crying
drown in the silence of blue night
and let the loneliness hold me secure
sing me to sleep
and carry me through the nights
outside,
austere moonlight streams in through the window
a sheen of wintry lustre
inside of the room,
in the lingering soft glow
fire crackling in the fireplace,
raspes and throws sparks into darkness
turn onto my side
the air stirs and i close my eyes
lay wrapped in dreams
the dream of three
dream the contented dream
dream sleep wrapping my arms around you
and wake up to find ..what?
is it because i have got too accustomed to it
that i feel no more restricted
that i forgot the feeling of ever been alone
if my voice could reach back through the past
i''ll whisper in your ear :how i wish you were here.
late night and early light
summer comes and gone
no longer the same person
i forgot the last time i'd cried
i forgot the taste of the white flakiness on my lips
on the night of being so alone and afraid
without you by my side

borned in 14/12/1875,the name CIEL has the meaning of '' sky blue'' in french,undoubtedly,Ciel is different from any other 12 years old children ,sophisticated and cynical,regarding the distrustful human nature contemptuously,this young face shows the stoniness and determination,once he had all the things in his grasp,parents who loved him more than anything,a brief but happy childhood,i wonder if it hadn't been that fire ,if he had not been taken away and abused,Ciel would have been living a better life ,he would not have Sebastian beside him ,he wouldn't have made the deal which demanding his soul,he would have married Elizabeth,even though sooner or later he would die ,but it'd mean dying in the memories of those who loved him.again ,no matter how cold he looks,he is still a child ,loves playing games, making fun of his butler ,loves to see the funny face of his incredible butler when he fails to complete an order from him.it hurt to see him faking a smile ,a lie to conceal his motive ,a never-accomplished promise ,to an innocent girl who waves smiling back at him,when she's out of sight,raised hand drops down to his side ,eyes hardened taking a frosty glint ,smile fading at his lips,again ,he's cold and cruel when it comes to completing mission on the orders from the queen ,he will try any means to get what he wants,he wont tolerate failure hence will not hesitate in making move,kicking off those who stay in his way ,to ensure he is able to climb to a higher place,even if it means stepping on other dead bodies ,letting the tears of other flow ,or sacrificing other lives ..

but who have caused the transition of a young innocent boy,the society ..this is a world full of lies ,pretentiousness ,and hyprocrites,either be the deprived or the depriver ,ciel see everyone as wanting something from him when they devote to serve him,he believes in no one except himself,the relationships built up based on profits and status ,once common interest is removed disloyalty and betrayal will be surfacing.the oppresion of poor ,noble fight for power,

kuroshitsuji

Plot
The series takes place in England during the reign of Queen Victoria. It follows Sebastian Michaelis, a demonic butler obliged to serve twelve-year-old Earl Ciel Phantomhive due to a contract he made with Ciel binding Sebastian to the child's will. Although Sebastian is able to carry out his tasks with ease and perfection, his co-workers, Baldroy, Finnian, and Mey-Rin, are not as competent, resulting in Sebastian having to complete their tasks as well. Sebastian also assists Ciel in solving the problems plaguing England.

Characters










Sebastian Michaelis is the butler of the Phantomhive household and Ciel 's bodyguard.pale slender fingers with nails painted in black revealed everytime he takes off the white gloves that worn over his hands,sleek black hair ,eyes that glow red in the dark or when he's granted an order from Ciel.dressed in black tailcoat ,lean and impeccable,he often describes himself with the phrase'' watashi wa akuma de shitsuji desukara'',a play on the word ''akuma(devil) ,so that it either translates to ''I'm just a butler'' or'' i serves as a butler and also a demon'',he's a cat person , who will call a cat as a real beauty,down to his knees ,dazed,eyes shown with admiration and love when he sees one ,but who never at once casted a side glance to a real woman who's trying to seduce him,=.=''he has unquestionably perfect knowledge ,manners ,talent with material,martial arts ,he shows his loyalty to Ciel ,serves beside him and for countless times save him from dangers,partly due to the deal they have made ,which results in a mark etched on the skin of his left hand ,binds him to the will.and demon never lies.i have just take a quick glimpse of his true form ,not very clear though ,high-heeled boots ,elongated nails and his body is surrounded by dark mist,yet it's enough detailed to make the angel cringes with disgust ,face twisted in disdain ,as if he's seen something truly filthy

Ciel Phantomhive






is the business-savvy ,12 -year- old head of the English Phantomhive noble family, a blue ring wore on one of his fingers,which is of the same colour of his eyes -sapphire and it's the heirloom that has been passed down from his ancestors,reminding him the curse laid upon Phantomhive family.he runs a company selling children toys and sweets.his parents were killed in a fire ,their house burnt down , he lost everything in just one night,and was carried away to be humiliated and abused , there's a red mark burnt into the side of his waist ,which is something he doesn't like for others to see,reminding him the pain he has gone through ,he ever said that he came back for himself ,even though he did take down revenge ,the dead would never be brought back to life, but he wants those people who have shamed him to taste the same pain,rather than dabbed his feet in the rotten past ,he moves on ,never regretting each move he has taken,it's suggested that he looks at Sebastian as a pawn ,in the chess game,who can move to anywhere with just single move ,he said the rules only exist in a chess game ,in the real world ,they are meaningless,in a game there''ll be the showing up of betraying chess piece ,or the rule-breaking pawn ,if you were to be careless,your king'd be taken down,in the end ,even though Sebastian is still bound to the will ,waiting for his master to take the next move .he wears black eye patch to cover the purple pentagonal symbol,which bears a contract with his demon.although he's portrayed as emotionless ,it's shown that he does that to avoid feeling hurt or lose something important to him again.

black butler

i wake up to find pain ,
throbbing and fresh
start gnawing its way up my side,
my hand clutches the lower side of coat
feel the wetness on the tips of my fingers
the colour of crimson blossoms
and recalls memories from beneath
i remember choas
everything went aflame,
pillars crumbled down,
blazing flame raged on,charred the surface as it crossed,
tainted the sky overhead blood red
the crying sound slashed the silence of the night air
the city fire,fury of an angel
like the churning sea in storm,
dark and twisted
washed everything red
where am i
sit up and gray spinning fog is around
coils over the surface of water like a serpent
leaves no mark where it crawls
folded and furled
the air is thin
water gray as steel beneath my feet
the boundary is vague
at where the horizontal line disappears
the world's hauled into nothingness
like a faded picture
dark blue eyes look out over the water
watching breaths flushing out turn into white dense vapour ,
slowly rises up and vanish into the bluish gray of light
curled up on the wooden board
the outline of city ,the curve of river or
the shape of the bridge is unrecognizable
sit on a lake of shadows
the gloom dives in
the future is never transparent clear
yet the past is fading,
every pieces of it,
like the sand in glass
my life is flitting,
my soul is lifted.
the growing darkness growing
creeps in from the corners of my eyes
my vision blurs
flurry of blue spots float past me,
brush my face gently ,
twirl in front of me before blow away
''what are these blue light?
''these are the people appeared in your life,these are their longings for you,my master''
''longings?such a strange feeling''
the moon is dreaming upward
from a sea of cloud and gleams
sorrow darkens into despair on the surge of heart
that cannot cease to bear
never thought I'd be able to feel again
sadness clings to me
darkness closes it on every side
the rose has lost its redness
cold the grass has grown
water rushes up the shore and recedes with calming repetition which
eventually becomes stillness
this is where when it ends

you look so sad as you sleep
as if you were having a bad dream
but i'm here ,right beside you
and i wont go anywhere
how do i live without you
you have lived mistaking freedom for selfishness
relying on a starless night
with an invisible eye
to everyone who is empty
hold out a hand and dream a dream
now look to the sky
for i will always protect you
the shadow is free to flap its wings and fly around
for i do no long for it anymore
anyone isnt free

everyone is in the sky
in the cage called ''freedom''
its enough if you are here
for i do not need wings anymore

they look so cute together,the way he hugs and looks at her ,as though nothing else matters ,the world is just the two of them ,this song hits me ,and now i just cant help but keep falling ,falling in love with the lyric ,it's so real the feeling expressed in the whole song ,couples quarrel,make up ,break up ,the highest of highs ,the lowest of lows in the relationship,and what's the most important thing is when they truly appreaciate each other,love and care for each other, only then they can get through the hard times,the first time i watched this video ,i was like whoa ,he really can hit high note,and it seems so smooth ,swt ,i thought he couldnt have made it there , nice song ,and tight pants ,eyeliner,yeah ,it's hot ...

weird but fun ,haha i love lady gaga,she always surprises me ,her mind is full of crazy ,unconventional ideas ,which make her special ,i dont care if people dislike her ,criticise or insult her music ,different people will have different ways of thinking ,and different preference..

rules of dream

today went to watch for a second time ,found certain new things i missed previously.skip the lengthy story ,I'd like to summarise this movie ,in case you found it very hard and time consuming to read the long ,lenghty passage down there ,swt

there are several rules I'd like to introduce .
what's an architect ?
an architect is a person who designs dreamworld ,constructs places ,streets and small details of real world to make the dream looks real ,in other words ,to create a close-loop to deceive the subject's mind so that he will think it's reality,the maze is designed so that as the subject runs around it,he can never reach the boundary or edge of it ,and subsequently realises that it's an imaginary place,and the more complicated the maze the more time they will have before the subject's mind start to realize that he's in other people dream,and will react violently to find the dreamer to drive him out,the subject subconscious' projection will lead them to the top secret they try to extract.an architect can manipulate real world architecture and physics and teach them to each dreamer.she or he may not necessary enter the dreamworld ,they can choose to stay behind . but in this case ,Ariadne wants to follow Cobb into the dreams ,as she knows that Cobb is very unstable now ,and will bring in his own subconscious projection such as Mal and his own kids to the dreams ,the others still haven't known about his secret and this can endanger the whole mission ,as his wife Mal can always turns up and ruins it.the train we see in the first level running and crashing into their car is actually the projection of Cobb subconscious.

dreamer
an achitect may not neccesary have to be a dreamer at the same time.dreamer is the host of a dream level,and whose dream is filled with the subject subconscious.he or she can manipulate the design on that level ,create a dreamworld ,such as when Cobb wants Ariadne to show him what she could do in 5 Min's ,they enter into a dream whose dreamer is Ariadne and filled with Cobb's projection ,she can change things on that level ,create new things ,but the more she changes ,the more attention conjured on her .and when a dreamer is killed ,the dream is destroyed .this is shown when Aurthur is killed at the beginning ,the building in level 2 start to crumble down ,and Saito start to wake up.and Aurthur as a second level dreamer can set up tricks like the endless staircase ,paradox.Eames who is the third level dreamer can add a shortcut to get into the snow fort.a dreamer is like us,when we dream,we create our dreams,sometimes the places may not be something we are familiar with but we don't feel strange about it until we wake up from it.and i feel like when i am close to waking up ,which is when my mind enter into rapid eye movement stage ,i can actually control or manipulate the dream ,i can reverse back the scene after it's happened when i don't feel like the ending ,i can twist and change it into my own version ,or if i know there's something bad going to happen to my characters in the dream ,like stuck in a house and zombie is after me ,i can simply shrink myself to an ant size and hide in certain places before it's gone and I'm back to original size ,or i simply can jump from roof to roof before taking off to a flight ,or rather i can dream the bars of window to have disappeared so that I'm able to get out of the house.sometimes ,i can control my dreams ,just like the characters in the movie do .i can totally relate to the feeling of them confused about dreams and reality ,cause in a dream ,it feels good to have the power of controlling over something,and everything seems lucidly real that you choose not to wake up from it.
extractor
a person who is skillful and trained to extract thoughts from the subject's mind.it's possible also to place an idea ,if you placed deep enough ,as the deeper you go ,the lesser control your conscious areas of brain has over the dream,hence the more influential will the idea planted turn out to be.the idea planted can define a person or destroy him.

the subject
whose subconscious is actually brought inside the dream ,and thoughts is extracted from.


projection
a manifestation of a subject 's vision of reality,projection populates the dreamworld.

and it's said that when we dream ,we create our dream and proceed to find our true self simultaneously,Cobb's job is to find a shortcut through that process ,replaces the creation part with his own,manipulate the subject subconscious so as to get the secret he wants.

1.time seems to double or lengthen as you go deeper.5 Min's in reality can be 60 Min's in dream.this is because your brain works fast in dream ,when Cobb and his wife wake up from limbo ,he says it's as if old souls in young bodies .

2.the physics of each level is disturbed by what's happening above .when yusuf swerves around the corner ,Aurthur is thrown sideways ,this affects the dream in which he hosts,and the hotel floor goes askew,inclined.and when rain water splashes on his face,the weather turns from sunny to raining on second level.when the van falls off the bridge ,Aurthur 's sleeping body is thrown upwards and suspended in the air ,this causes the second level to lose gravity.

3. kicks,designed to bring you back from the level below to the level in which the kick is initiated.this is shown at the beginning of the movie ,when they are trying to extract info from saito's mind,the second level dream is destroyed when Aurthur dies,but Cobb is not waken up yet,then Nash dunks his body in a bathtub full of water ,the kick wakes him up ,this suggests that you can wake up from a dream either by using kicks ,death or simply wait for the timer of the machine to stop and release you from the dream.when they take heavy sedative to stabilise dreams within dreams,they are specifically told that it will not impair the inner ears function and they could still feel the falling sensation ,which is the kick ,and they demonstrating it by tipping the chair to wake Aurthur up ,i believe Aurthur isn't under sedative at that moment ,they are simply just showing how a kick will work to Ariadne.however ,taking heavy sedative means that you'll need two synchronised kicks ,a kick from your current level and a kick from where your sleeping body is ,to drop yourself at the same time , Aurthur says :his music warns me ,and when the van hits the barrier ,it should be unmistakable,and i will blow up the room ,so we will get a nice synchronised kick. before the van gets chased off the bridge ,yusuf places a headset over Aurthur 's ears to warn him that a kick is coming and he needs to get ready to create a kick on second level exactly at that moment,and the synchronised kick will bring them back to the first level.but the kick happens too soon ,and Aurthur isn't in any position to start off the second layer kick ,hence he is not able to pull off simultaneous kicks and this explains why he does not wake up from the second level dream when the van falls off the bridge.and after Mal's killed Fischer ,Cobb says to eames ,who is trying to revive him using defibrillator, that it will not work ,because his mind is trapped down there,and let's set up the charges,if a kick from the level above was enough to pull them back ,why did eames bring the charges along in the first place?it seems to me that they have planned it before they entered the dreams.and Ariadne suggests to go down there and bring Fischer back,she says we go down there to create a kick for him ,when the music starts ,use the defibrillator ,we will give him a kick down there ,when it stops ,blow the charges.the falling sensation and the defibrillator wakes him up to third level.they preferably choose kicks or waking up naturally after 10 hours rather than death,because in this case ,death throws you into limbo,which is an unconstructed dream scape,a place of raw,infinite subconscious,and you may easily lose grip on reality.

under normal sedation-death and kick from above level wake you up

heavy sedation-two simulataneous kicks are needed ,one from above level and one from the current dream state in which you are in,this is to boost the effect of kicks as you are under heavy sedation,it's harder to wake up than usual.

4.never recreate places from memories ,as this will make you feel lost and no longer able to distinguish between reality and dreams .

5.totem .an object created by dreamer to help him figure out weather he's in reality or a dreamworld .Cobb's totem ,or rather Mal's ,is a top ,that will keep on spinning ,infinitely in dreams.never let anyone touch your totem ,this is because if they knew your totem ,the weight,structure and shape of it,they can fake one ,and this will defeat the purpose of a totem ,and they can con you into a dream in which you believe is true .

6.when you die in you dream ,you simply wake up from it .but if you are injured ,you will feel real pain.if you died on sedative ,depends on the strenght of it ,if it's the normal sedative you use,as what Aurthur and Cobb did at the beginning of the movie ,you wake up from level 2 dream ,back to level 1 which is the hotel room .


7.the deeper the dreamstate,the lesser control of your consciousness have over the dream and the harder it's to wake up,dream becomes lucid and more vivid as you do deeper ,and you may lose track of what it's real ,no longer able to differentiate between reality and dreams ,hence your mind will not try to wake up and slipping into a coma state.

so questions ,
how Mal and Cobb got out of limbo in the first place ?
i presume that they didn't take any forms of sedative when they go to sleep ,i know you may ask how come the dream level can become so stable for them,if previously they didn't take any sedative.later i will present the explanation which i think is the most probable .Cobb says they were experimenting,and he wanted to go deep down ,to see how many levels they could descend to ,but he didn't realise that the deeper they went ,the easier they'd lose grip on reality,and start to lost sight of what's real ,and they constructed buildings from their memories ,such as Mal's childhood house,this made it even difficult for them to see the truth and Mal becomes increasingly convinced that the dream she's in is real.this is what prevents them from waking up ,because the mind wouldn't want to,they are in a state of ''coma'' or at the brink of their subconscious.and Cobb incepted her ,as they realised their minds were trapped down here,and they had no one up there to kick them back up,as cobb ,the dreamer had gone down there with mal,when the dreamer is gone ,the dreamworld is destroyed ,and the link to levels above is cut off completely ,hence this left them the only choice of leaving limbo by death.they had been on their own ,instead of leaving people on each level to activate the kicks,then Cobb decided to create his own kick by killing themselves to wake them up from dreams within dreams,he just thought of trying ,cause they were the first person down here and didn't know weather it's work ,but it truly brought them back ..without anyone help,depends solely on the feeling of imminent death in limbo.

this establishes a rule:when you are in limbo ,and your mind is trapped within ,you can kill yourself to leave limbo.the condition of this rule applied is that you shouldn't take any sedative before that or when the sedative has worn off.then you can jump from limbo straight to reality ,there's a shortcut from limbo back up to reality.but the thing is will you dare to try ? the courage of killing yourself isn't something you can scramble up within ,and what if you are wrong ,then you'd be truly dead by then.and it's also likely that you are trapped down there for so long that you think it's reality and choose not to kill yourself.

Cobb and his team use a heavy sedative to stabilise the dream levels so that fisher will not wake up as the mission proceeds ,but the side effect is when you die you go to limbo ,and lost there,cause your mind may try to wake up but your body wont ,because of the sedative in your blood.and by the time the sedative wears off ,it can be years down there in limbo,and your mind slowly become trapped and muddled,that you choose to believe the world you are in is real and may not kill yourself to leave .when saito is shot ,yusuf says he will die and trapped in limbo ,and can only wait for the sedative to wear off before he can leave.but will he choose to leave by then ?

kicks can also be used to pull you out from limbo ,as Cobb and Mal never tried doesn't mean that it wont work. the kick in limbo(ariadne pushes him off the building )and the kick in third level(electric shock) brings him back.

Cobb found saito ,and he's already an old man,their sedative has already worn off,as the dosage they used lasts only 10 hours ,the span of flight from Sydney to LA,but the problem is now Cobb seems to forget the purpose he came here for,Ariadne specifically told him not to lost himself before she jumped off the building ,but years in limbo can impair your memory ,but the conversation with saito makes him remember ,and he convinces saito that the world he's in isn't real ,they kill themselves with gun and goes back to reality . the first rule of limbo can be applied here:death can escape limbo .and straightaway back to reality without having to pass through those 3 layers in front,there's no other way to explain this ,they wouldn't have been able to go from level to level as Aurthur them already back in the plane ,and the three levels dreams have collapsed and no one is there to kick them from level to level,and this is also possible for them to leave by death,as the sedative effect already worn off.

and you may ask why Aurthur death at the beginning of the movie didn't send him straight from that specific dream level to reality ,i have thought about the answer ,i think possibly they take a normal sedative (but not the yusuf's specially formulated sedative),it makes sense that they are on a mission and they will not want to blow it up by having the subject (mr.saito)wakes up before they get what they want from him .but mr.saito did wake up from the second level dream before Cobb ,this maybe not due to the effect of sedative ,but rather it's because the second dream ,dreamt by Aurthur has already been destroyed as he's shot in head by Cobb.

and the ending ,omg ,I'm so happy that i saw it ,it's a reality for me !maybe you will have different evidences or proofs to show that it's a dream ,but it's all simply due to different opinions we have,and the ending is rather ambiguous and unclear . I'd like to stick to the belief that he wakes up and comes back to reality.i found the clothes his kids wear in dream are not the same as in reality,they aren't wearing the same clothes exactly ,although it may be just subtle difference ,but the difference is still there.in his dreams,his daughter wears a pink dress and the shoes she wears are of dark brown or black coloured,and his son wears a green and red checked shirt with a very obvious-looking red strip going down from the top of the collar at the back of his shirt,and he's playing on the ground before Philipa runs to him ,then in reality ,i mean in the ending part,she wears a pink dress with a white shirt inside,you can tell form the sleeves,and her shoes are white coloured ,his son wears a green -blue checked shirt and the RED STRIP at the back is gone !and Philipa is kneeling beside her brother playing with him ,her head jerks up when she hears her dad is back.

and how did Cobb get washed up on the shore next to saito's house in limbo? i don't think I'll be able to find any answer to this question ,this is because as we are told from the beginning ,don't you always not remember the beginning of your dream ?the dream seems vague and hard to recall ,i have always just remembered the behind part or the middle when i dream ,and dream can jump from dream so easily.hence it doesn't make sense trying to explain here ,or crack your head for a possible answer.